Thank you for your honesty. My baby girl is going through this right now. She’s been waiting to see a psychiatrist for months.The system is frustratingly slow. Recently told me that she was so afraid that she’ll see the doctor and she will say, “You’re not depressed, you’re just a useless waste of a human being.” Then she told me, “Of course I know this is my depression speaking, but I still worry.” I’m so glad you are doing better, and that you have learned to celebrate the little things that make you happy. Take care, my friend.